It’s how I see the world. Here’s a few:
I’m a very vengeful person, too much probably. I hold people to their mistakes and for some reason I can’t let them forget it. I make people feel inferior…I’m pushing people, the ones that mean the most, away it seems. I feel so alone. And it’s all my fault. Yes they’ve betrayed me, but I in turn have betrayed them by refusing forgiveness. With my parents, my brother, my sister, my Alvaro. They’ve all said the same thing, ‘If you hate me so much why are you even here?!’
For the record, I don’t hate them. I just don’t know how I can trust them with my love after what they’ve done.
I’m scared of being hurt by the people that mean the most.
…but maybe so are they…
I have to forgive and forget now, before it’s too late. And it’s not easy.
She’s my new coworker. I was very skeptical before, but after getting to know her today I think she’s great.
Sometimes you just don’t know how wonderful someone is until you remove all stereotypes and past mistakes from view.
Her resume was something else. 2004 jailed for marijuana abuse. Who knows what else. 4 years probation. Perfect participant for a family-oriented restaurant.
Turns out she is, she’s charismatic and optimistic and quite fun to be around. I haven’t met anyone so full of life in a while. I’m hoping it’s not from some sort of LSD side effect or that she secretly smokes pot when she’s on her cigarette breaks…
I was feeling like crap this morning after arguing with my boyfriend, but she made enough stupid jokes with me to make it all better.
Thank you
Situation:
This is our second attempt at a relationship, after you left me, my tears rolling down my face and my future feeling like a mere shadow of what once was, after making that promise with that one word which has no meaning to me anymore. That word which exerts such ecstasy, but taken away can destroy all barriers. That word, ‘Forever’. Taylor Swift is the country muse who sings it beautifully with a tormented heart when ‘you said forever and always…but did you mean it baby?’ Lies.
You still had your dating site, on which we met. And you still had yourself on Single for the longest time, even though I blatantly said it bothered me. You even told me of a pen pal, which I was never given details or explanation. You didn’t change it. Up until it drove us almost to the breaking point. Suspicion.
Recently, you told me how you don’t know what the future has in store. You just want to ‘have fun’. No future plans whatsoever. Long distance perhaps? ‘HA – no’ was your response. What’s the point, then. Point-less.
Lies, suspicion, and point-lessness. They drive me to wonder, how much love is there?
My name is anonymous for good reason. I feel it should be this way. You will get to know the internal me, but never the external me, because I’m not trying to make friends or be an internet socialite, just release emotions that need to be let go. I can’t let them hold me down anymore…
I feel lost. I’m gay and in love with a man who prefers his space in an already long-distance like relationship. I live at home with my happyless parents who feel a sense of control over me and my actions will better their own lives. I work at a sandwich shop serving food to military driven people, the fit and adrenalined soldiers, or the hunger driven people, the American obese. I attend a community college with a tuition paid for by the great state of Florida and its conservative agenda against my species. It feels like, day by day, I’m living either behind enemy lines in the unaccepting non-liberal core of America, the land of the “free”, or I’m just moving by through the oncoming days…just to move. I have no reason to be. I feel lost.
